So Callum and I are hanging out outside and it's quiet. Really quiet. No trucks going in and out of the driveway. Only the occasional vehicle on the usually busy road. In fact, most of the time the only noise we can hear are the crickets in the tall grass in the ditch across the road. It was the same on Saturday. I hung out some laundry. No sound from the neighbours' yards. Probably camping or out on some other adventures. Stu is working on yet another holiday weekend. It's just him and Joel today and Saturday. Not that I am complaining, as we do need the money. Thanks for working so hard, Stu. ;) We'll just have to have a "holiday" during the school year. Callum and I have colds, anyway, so we wouldn't be up for much adventuring, although lil man is still his usual crazy self.It's going to be strange going back to school after a year of mowing, preaching, and waiting. It's kind of been our joke that we're 30 and still in school. (We, as in Stu :) ) But it seems to be the best decision for now. Although it's a second choice, I am sure that a lot of good can come from it as well. It's just took me a while to accept that.
Which brings me to the reason why I haven't been blogging for so long. This summer has been tough, emotionally. It had gotten to the point where I became so disappointed, disillusioned, sad, frustrated, and discontent to the point of depression. Our situation made me, a normally patient person, impatient. I didn't feel like blogging, which was doing something joyful, with the emotional burden I had. I really had stop and examine my attitude, which had gotten pretty cynical, and inappropriate. Asking God for forgiveness was my first step, as well as praying that He would help me fight my ill feelings and adjust my attitude!
I still have my bad days now and then, but I have to keep delving into God's Word, and praying for strength, patience, and peace.
So, I have a lot of catching up to do. I have camping photos and videos to post as well as Callum's second birthday party, and plenty of other stuff in between! I'll get right to it. :)
5 comments:
Glad you're back (in all the different ways). Love ya!
Marlaine
I'm glad you're back too.... and hoping that this year is a better one for you.
Hey sweetie!
Our prayers are with you every single night as we lay our heads down for the night. We ask that the Lord grants Stu a congregation, if it is His will, and to guide and bless you with your difficult days. Many thoughts and emotions have been weighing heavy on you, and it makes me sad knowing you are not happy. You are adjusting, and I'm glad to know you have such a strong, open communication with the Lord. For this I am so grateful. There's a song "Unaswered Prayers". And we have to remember that God does hear every word and thought in your heart, sweety, and it seems like you are not having your wishes fulfilled, but, it's not an unaswered prayer, for it is in the works. Right now, He is working on your future. Your seemingly unanswered prayer will be answered. In His time...and in His way. I know that you already know all this, but sometimes it's ok to be reminded anyways. That;s my job. And I love you. Focus on this new little bundle of joy that God has allowed you to be blessed with. Stay healthy, sleep well, and cuddle that little man of yours. Life IS good. No matter where you are or what finacial burden you are under. My mom always said, "it could be worse" and at times I hated hearing it..but it's true. You are all healthy. And that is the best gift He gives us. Go from there, and you'll be fine. I promise.
Love, Mom
Glad that you're finding comfort and strength in our loving heavenly Father and that you've had the strength to be open about your struggles. That takes courage! I am looking forward to catching up and remember if you need someone to talk to give me a call or come on by.
Alisa
Thank you so much for your comments. I really need the encouragement.
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